Saturday, May 12, 2007
dis aftnoon realize smth
and dis makes me think.
realized hating ppl need alot of energy.
and dis makes me not in a gd mood whenever i think of dis 2 ppl.
although i dun hate dem , but i dun c e need to talk to dem
or
rather
i dun c e need to become frenz again
we could juz pass by each other taking each other as strangers
i'm perfectly fine wif tt.
juz pretend we dunno each other
we r not anyways related
now,
i feel relieve and i've lighted e load off my heart.
no more hard feelings
no more childish act.
its time 4 some grown up things.
dun wanna be lyk those grown ups but still behaving foolishly
its time to get down to serious business
set rulez 4 myself::
- throw away things tt i dun lyk to c inside my room
- 4get all those unhappy memories inside my mind
- dun wanna give a damm to tt 2 person
- other den studying/performing.. e rest i wont care
- wont care wad ppl think of me
- trust onli family members, and a small grp of frenz..
haven been myself 4 dis past weeks
where is my old self?
disappeared! ~
seems to hv another person in me
and our characters aren't e same
its terrible..
dis kind of feeling......seems.......painful
can anybody tell me wad to do nxt?
i doubt so...
its time to get back my old self
destroy dis person who is in me
dun care wad e outcome is
even if it takes me to disappear
i wan to get back my old me!!!
who can i turn to?
onli myself........
heart aches!
feel lyk stabbing my heart and die --
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