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Thursday, October 30, 2008

prj still stuck halfway.
and tml is e end of wk 9.
left wif onli 2 more wks.
argh!!
how i wish now its onli wk 2.
haha.
ok. im dreaming...

met up wif my 56 cliques ytd
joan was der when i reached.
had a hard time lookin 4 Mos Burger.
lOl.

wait awhile 4 cindy and karen.
cindy reach 1st and den followed by karen.

hv our dinner and aft tt
exchange some chit chats.
(:
its been a long time since we hv a nice chat.

aft tt,
went to walk around.
had nth to buy.
so around 8+
decided to head home.

took train wif cindy.
she alighted @ Serangoon while i alighted @ Hg.
lookin @ e time,
its still early
so i went to get my earrings and bro's hair wax.

when i reach home,
realize tt e earring i bought,
1 of e pair was spoilt.
weird is tt i din get angry.
hahahas.
cuz its cheap.
onli 1.50 bucks.
so ... tt explains y its spoilt.

my phone is dead.
so im using my dad's spare phone.
think e model is 6230i.

when karen saw my phone.
she say dis to me
karen: " shimin, r u gg to e army soon?"
me: " no.. y? "
karen: " y r u using dis kind of phone lyk army phone? "
me: " lOl. my phone is dead. "
hahahas..
tt's so funny la.

thinking of getting a new phone.
but wad shld i get??
went to c phones dis aftnoon.
saw dis motorola v9.
was cool and nice.
but.. i dun lyk motorola.
i still prefer nokia. (:

perhaps i will get a 2nd hand phone ba.
its much more cheaper.
cash running low.
bills not clear yet.
gosh.

phone is down.
so no picts to be posted.
):

** love is in e air. (:

sharlene signed off @8:43 PM

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

wad hv i done wrong today??
everythin is against me.

i hate e word LIE.
i hate e sentence U DUN MEAN WAD U SAY.
and i hate receiving msges EARLY IN e MORNING now!!!
unless u hv smth impt to say.
and not scolding ppl.
aft scolding, said nth happen.
wtf is tt?
and i DID NOT LIE!!!
alright?
accuse me 4 all u can ba.
and thkz 4 giving me such a WONDERFUL MORNING TO START WIF!!!

finding fault @ ppl when u r @ fault is e right way?
accussing ppl of wad dey had done when u had nth better to do?
and dun say till u r 100% gd!
cuz no one is PERFECT!

frenz come and go.
so im not surprise or shocked if 1 day anybody leaves.
whether im bad or im being nasty,
i no longer care.
yes.
im e one being nasty.
im e one being attitude.
im e one being selfish.
im e one being hot tempered.
im e one being unreasonable.

i admitted to all dis
cuz its e facts.
ppl shld be happy now.
cuz gd words wont be used on me.

enuff of everythin!
my limit has reached.
e terrible feeling inside me is enuff.
not onli other ppl is feeling terrible inside ok.
im aso!!!
super pissed off now.
F*** off everyone.

last but not least.
lesson learnt.

* ppl around me. dun ask me wad happen.
cuz u all noe i wont say.
thkz.

sharlene signed off @3:06 PM

Sunday, October 26, 2008

im here to blog.
cuz someone's asking when i will blog
cuz i told her dis
" lets c who blogged e most "
lOl.
so,
here's my entry 4 today..
...
...........

here marks e ending of wk 8.
counting down to 3 more wks.
and tt's e end of fyp.

prjs still not completed yet.
still stuck halfway.
gone case dis time.
how??
haiz..
stress up wif it!

how i wish my prj could finish faster,
how i wish my fyp dun end so fast.
its contradicting i noe.
i dun wan do prj,
but i wanna enjoy e fun in lab wif my L-633 frenz..

meeting up wif FC cliques on wed.
finally meeting up wif u girls!!
i've waited so long.
and sry 4 all those previous mtg.
i din manage to meet up..
cya girls on wed!!
(;

sharlene signed off @1:27 AM

Monday, October 20, 2008

gd things and bad things came.
wonder shld i feel happy or sad

we finally became sworn sisters today.
happy is e word i would choose to use.
=D
hope u r happy too.
sometimes i may not be a gd sister,
but i'll try my v best!!

pissed off wif ppl.
dun wanna feel lyk mentioning e names.
2 incidents.
which im not gg to mention.
and thkz 4 making me feel GUILTY!
reali thkz.
i wont believe anymore.

4 more wks and tt's e end of FYP.
prjs ??
haiz.
still struggling..
hope can finish by end of wk 12.
*pray hard.

sup ask me abt my grandpa today in sch.
when he's alone wif me.
asking me qns on how he pass away.
haiz..
i cried and said in details to him.
tears kept flowing..
dis made me think of my grandpa in e other world.
i miss him alot!!!
i reali miss him!!!
..
....
......

ah gong, can u come back to us???

sharlene signed off @11:59 PM

Saturday, October 18, 2008

its been 2 wks since my grandpa left us.
everythin is back to normal.
everyone's back to wad dey r suppose to do.
working ... schooling ... exams ...

me?
of cuz im still doing my fyp.
but my misses 4 my grandpa r still der.
haiz...

i luv e fun times in sch
cuz its reali fun and enjoying.
nth but laughters r wad i heard.

its my 1st time c-ing 2 girls & 2 guys wrestling in class!!!
who r dey?
- mic and joycelyn -
- alvin and zhi yang -

whose e winner?
4 e ladies, both of dem claim tt dey r e winner.
4 e guys, if im not wrong, its alvin.

hahas

soon its wk 8.
its gonna end soon..
but e feeling is reali not nice.
aft fyp ended,
wad will happen to everyone?
be in contact?
or lose contact?
i dun wan to think abt it.
cuz its saddening ..

and i've came to realise 1 thing.
not onli i've lost my grandpa,
i've aso lost my belongings.
LOL.
now den i realise.

ok.
lets list out wad i've lost
1. my white color tee shirt.
2. my white color long sleeve formal top.
3. all my earrings.

3 items lost.
haiz..
where's all my earrings???
my crystal earrings... gone too.

if im gonna buy
i've gt to buy 4 pairs!
y?
cuz i've gt 7 ear holes. -.-"

its ok la.
juz console myself by saying
" min, its time to change earrings "
=)

gg to be short of clothes to wear.
no color clothes to be worn within 49 days.
think i need to stock up.

performance tonite.
chai chee lian he temple. =)
will be back to post if der's photos taken tonite.

to be continue ....

sharlene signed off @1:28 PM

Saturday, October 11, 2008

everythin ended today.

[[ misses ]]
[[ tired ]]

ytd was e last day of e funeral
ah gong's body was being sent to Mandai Crematourim
c-ing e coffin moving into e fire slowly,
i totally broke down.
calling him out loud.
i cant do anythin
except c-ing him moving into e fire.

till now,
wheneva i think of it.
i'll be super sad.
=(

went to collect ah gong's bones today
and now,
ah gong is located @ FA HUA MONASTERY

came back home
e adults were clearing ah gong's stuffs.
found all e b'dae cards we made 4 him..
quite a no. of it r frm me and my silbings.
dey were so cute..

der's dis little thing,
which is a gift frm e TTS Hospital nurse to my ah gong.

a little puppy in a bag,
wif a smilly face.
c-ing it reminds me of him.

* ah gong,
hope u r happy and staying wif ah ma in e other world.
i'll always miss u and ah ma.
cuz both of u r my dearest and beloved grandparents.
thkz 4 being my grandparents.
4 der's nxt life,
i still wan to be ur grandchild.
i promise.
lastly,
a last gdbye to u.
i love u!

p/s:
i wanna thkz my FYP-mates:
Michelle
Chloe
Alvin
PeiLin
Khalis
Spencer
Chun Xiong
Zi Jian
who turn up at e wake on Wed nite
thkz my frenz who send me console sms-es
thkz Michelle and Chloe who turn up ytd(fri) to send my ah gong off.
thkz!

sharlene signed off @1:40 PM

Saturday, October 04, 2008

woken up by my mum dis morning around 9:19am.
telling me ah gong had pass away.
i was stunned.
i ask her y.
called up my dad.
he's alr in hospital.

thr e phone i ask him.
his voice trembled.
he's crying.
im crying too.

me: "pa, where r u?"
dad: "im in e hospital."
me: "ah gong pass away ar?"
dad: "ya."
me: "y?"
dad: "dunno.. haven check yet."

so me, my bro and my 2nd sis took a cab rushing down to TTS
heavy traffic.
getting impatient.
on e way, everyone is weeping.
finally,
we reached TTS.

saw my ah gong lying der on e bed.
not moving.
not smiling.
not talking.

i look at him.
tears keep flowing.

i called out to him when im alone wif him
he din ans.
i said to him,
" ah gong, i tot u wan to come back and stay wif us?"
" i tot u told me u will be obedient and gd?"
"y didn't u keep ur promise?"

still,
he din ans.
he juz remain quiet and lying der wif his eyes closed.

i juz visited him ytd nite.
brought him e photo tt i took wif him during my previous visit.
i showed it to him.
he signal me to ask me to bring back.
i look at e photo he took previously and compare wif it ytd,
much thinner and pale den be4.

and today,
he's no longer here anymore.

everyone is crying so sadly.
no one noes wad's e cause of his death.
we will onli noe it tml morning.

i onli noe im sad.
='(
haiz..

gdbye my ah gong.
i miss u!

** to my dearest ah gong:
ah gong, although u hv left us
u r always 4eva in our hearts.
no matter wad, u r still e dearest and loveliest grandpa i eva hv.
hope u r happy in e other part of e world.
i luv u ah gong! **

sharlene signed off @1:50 PM

Thursday, October 02, 2008

symptons of falling sick is here.
throat feeling uncomfortable..
dry cough..
abit of running nose.
feeling tired all day long.
haiz.
and stressing over my prj.
and a swollen ankle. (recovering in process)
argh!
i wan a break.!

im tired.
i dun feel lyk talking.
i dun feel lyk gg anywhere.
i dun feel lyk doing anythin.
everythin to me is "ANYTHING"
i dunno y.

i wonder how long dis feeling will last.?
sick and tired of it.

Silverlight. i HATE silverlight.
no.
shld be i hate dis prj!!!
cuz dis prj makes me stress and nervous!!!

* a dead soul.

sharlene signed off @12:12 AM