Sunday, December 21, 2008
alot of times i realize im not suitable 4 r/s.
but still, i keep stepping in.
cuz i tot each time would be better.
but i was totally wrong.
again,
i failed badly.
i fell hard.
instead of bringing joy and happiness,
i cause misery and fear.
perhaps im most suitable to be alone
rather den stepping into r/s.
so tt i wont cause any unhappiness to ppl.
maybe im wrong to start e r/s in e 1st place.
i tot i can change myself.
i tot i can overcome myself.
im wrong!
im alr trying v hard ..
v hard to change ..
ppl juz cant c it.
or at least feel it.
ppl dun appreciate it..
i noe tt everyone has a limit to tolerance.
but do u reali think tt i took it 4 granted?
ppl think tt i dun wan to change.
but wad do dey noe?
dey noe nth at all !!!
dey onli noe tt im causing misery to dem.
so?
in e end, i leave.
to free dem frm misery and fear.
to grant dem their wish.
maybe disappearing into thin air would be better.
im such a failure.
ppl who dun wish us to be tgt, UR WISH HAS CAME TRUE.!!!u shld noe who u r.--------------------------------------------------------------------
** my last msg to u:sry 4 not being a gd gf 4 u. i guess im not suitable 4 u ba.. u need someone who can be der 4 u anytimeand someone who wont cause u misery. i noe i've cause u misery and fear.so i decided to leave.although i noe tt ytd u've alr decided to end,but u din say it out.today i gt ur hint.well anyway, everythin is over.u r free frm misery and fear now.thkz 4 everythin u hv done 4 me.its appreciated.p/s: e things tt i wanna return u will be wif zheng le.take it frm him. thkz. gdbye!**
sharlene signed off @9:31 PM
