Tuesday, May 26, 2009
gastric felt reali terrible today.
tt caused me to lose all my mood. =(
and i flare up easily today.
In e past,i had dis mindset tt i dun need to meet up wif my BF everyday. tt is 1 thing tt i dun lyk. i carried dis mindset along wif me till i met him. even though we're aso not mtg up everyday,but im always thinking of him. wanted to c him v badly. wanted to noe wad is he doing at e moment. wanted to noe whether is he thinking of me. wanted to call him up.wanted to keep e sms gg on. all dis thoughts, i've nv had be4 in e past r/s. Today,
i guess we're supposed to meet up.
but he cant make it.
he msg me in e morning to let me noe.
of cuz i will felt sad & disappointed.
cuz i've always been looking 4ward to meet him everytime.
well, tt partly affected my mood. ( partly becuz of my gastric )
i kept telling myself to cheer up.
but i failed. =(
until he sent me a msg.
saying he would came to fetch me home 1st be4 attending to his stuffs.
at tt moment,
i was abit guilty.
i dun wan to trouble him so i said its alrite, i will go home myself.
but he insisted on sending me home 1st.
and i agreeded.
when he arrived, i was happy.
but due to my gastric in pain on & off, i lost e mood to talk.
e journey home was quiet.
i knew he felt sad.
he juz held my hand while driving.
we stopped by a petrol kiosk.
he asked me to wait in e car 4 him.
he went to get smth..
when he's back,
he's holding a plastic bag filled wif 3 breads and 2 glass bottle soymilk.
breads r 4 me to eat during my working time when im hungry,
soymilk r 4 me to drink at nite incase my gastric acts up.
i looked at e items in e plastic bag,
i was speechless.
i do not noe wad to say.
he went out of e car to get another stuff.
i looked at e plastic bag filled wif breads and milk,
i almost teared.
i was happy & at e same time touched..
reali touched ..
he's back again wif a box of panadol.
cuz i complaint headache + giddy ytd nite.
i smiled and held his hand.
den we carried on e journey home.
To my dearest dear: i apologized to u 4 today.i dun meant to make u sad. its juz tt i hate it when i cant c u. =( and .. i love u too much. to be continue ....
